Recently, I became aware that my 41-year old son, who has a long history of drug addiction, had relapsed. I went home and sat with this information and asked myself, “Do I really need to be upset about this in my old, habitual way of playing out the role of the “burdened, guilty, anguished, worried Mom?”
As I sat in silence and relaxed into my body and the Presence of Being, I realized that the energy and need to play out that role actually disappeared. I found a new freedom to relate to my son honestly and directly about the situation. I sent him a text message that said,
“I don’t feel worried about you as in the past. I see a decade of recovery with expected relapses. Sobriety/clarity is not a constant in anyone ‘s life. It would be great to see you. Let’s have dinner soon.”
He responded with, “Yeah, and good news. I scheduled an appointment with a counselor near my house. Maybe dinner this weekend.”
All this speaks of a kind of miracle for a family with generations of alcoholism and to the truth that “love is truly letting go of fear.” A Course in Miracles is one of the teachings that ha supported my personal growth and I am very grateful to the teachers and fellow students here at Unity for this opportunity.